hi there,
ive had anxiety now for about 2 years. when i first got it i was a mess. couldnt leave the house because i would constantly feel sick and nauseous. i changed my whole life, changed my eating habits and exercised heaps but it took a long time to get back to my normal life, but i did. Two years on, ive relapsed (if that's even the right word). And this time its made me extremely depressed. it feels like there's no way out of this and it has completely taken over my life. i cannot see my friends or a guy im seeing because as soon as i start thinking about seeing them i start getting anxious. i dread the weekends because i know i will be alone and im scared of being alone because it gives me too much time to think but i cant go out because my body gets too much adrenaline running and i cant leave. i freak out everyday on the train to work because i know that i freak out on the train which makes me freak out...if that makes sense. I build myself up to get anxiety, i know that i get anxiety on the train so i get anxious about getting it. its a constant cycle that seems to never end and nobody around me understands. I spend as much time sleeping as possible because when im sleeping im not having to deal with it. I just want it to go away so i can live my life like a normal person again. Please please please help me.
