Sometimes i feel like the only way to feel normal is to be under stressful situations. I like to have many things on my plate and the feeling of being able to solve and manage them. That is why, lately, i do not know what to make of myself.
I'm 23 yo, speak three languages, recently graduated from law, and did it with a lot of expectations, only to find out that things are incredibly harder than expected (which is completely normal, and i know it's a phase to go through), i feel in such need of guidance, professionally speaking.
I'm also going through extreme loneliness, i recently came out of the closet to my family, after being in a relationship for a while; but i did not tell my closest friends (who are heterosexual). Which leaves me feeling like i have to move on from being with them (at least when it comes to support), they're very good, but they do not represent who i am as a whole, and have shown little respect for "homosexual behavior". To my gay friends i am completely out, just because i’ve told my family, and that makes feel uncomfortable with them. I do think that being honest with myself is extremely important, and that comes first, but i'm just torn, prioritizing, organizing and integrating every aspect of my life, and i'm failing to do so.
